Happy birthday Kiki & Nats!

A year ago today, I was in Berlin, staying at the East Seven Hostel in Prinzlauerberg, when I got the email via Facebook that twins Kira Louise & Natalie Ruth were born. They were about a month early & had to be born by C-section, as both were breech, but after only a short NICU stay, all three were home within a week. I was really happy for my sister although it was a little tinged with sadness. I was still recovering emotionally from the loss of our son Arrow, whose due date was a week after the twins'.

Before my nieces were born I worried that I'd always be reminded of my lost baby when I saw them, but thankfully this isn't the case. Perhaps because their birthday is a month before little Arrow's would have been? Maybe just because my grief just doesn't work that way. It could be because I got pregnant again not long after they were born & had that to worry about. (Though it was a relatively stress-free pregnancy, I didn't start to relax until into my fifth month, past the point where I miscarried Arrow.)

I'm looking forward to bringing my little boy to his cousins' birthday party this weekend. I can't wait to see Natalie's crawling & stair-climbing skills!